i dont think there is a picture that can begin to describe my feelings now. i have my english and spanish finals tomorrow. i will be failing my spanish one. without a doubt. at least i know i will pass my english one. my friend that i used to have feelings for hates me. i know hes upset because i would be also but i still want to be friends with him. its not like i want to loose him as a friend. i really only hung out with him twice but i considered one of my good friends. i was just starting to be myself around him and now it seems like he wants nothing to do with me. i dont know if im content, sad, upset or mad. i cant even tell. well i think me, lauren and maybe kristina are going to hang out with him this weekend. that will probably break the ice with everything. when he said he was "heartbroken" i knew exactly how he felt. that brought me back to 8th grade. that was not a good year. i cant even begin to explain that year in my life. i thought this year was better but not my best. i think 7th was? i really dont know. i just want summer to being already. even though thats tomorrow... well i hope everything works out for the best and we can be friends. hey, never know what happens in the future. you just have to sit back, and wait. i should get back to studying even though i shall be failing tomorrow anyways...kpeace.
"I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.,'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.,I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.,Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard,That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa...."
-Paramore<3!
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