THE CAB IS TOMORROW. but im not as excited as i thought...im not sure why though. maybe tomorrow i will be? anyways, today was bad. woke up, and cleaned all the windows and screens. i had to take all of them out of the windows bring them outside soak them in soap and water. then clean the windows down. then keep the screens out to dry and then put them back. well, the screens now have all white shit on them from idek what. then lauren and kristina came over. that was fun. we made braclets and talked. well, now they just left and im siting here thinking about everything they told me to do with you. i still don't know though. they both said almost the EXACT same thing. kristina said she see's me more upset over you then when im happy. that i can find someone better and eventually i will feel just as comfortable with the new person then when im with you. lauren pretty much said the same thing. and that if we do go back out, the problems we tried and ignored are just going to come up again. one of us is going to get hurt in the end so its not a good idea. but they also said its still up to me because i see a diffrent side of you. all i think about is the good times we had..well..when we had good times. well i think i want to but when i get ready to tell you all i think to myself is "wait, is this a good idea, are you 1,000,000% sure about this, because you cant end it in 2 days from now." but i just might be willing to take the risk. well going to the library to get my summer reading books. then prolly watching hannah montanna, making braclets and getting ready for tomorrow...BYE. 

"take the risk, take the fall,  if its what you want then its worth it all.."

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