i lied. this is one of the worst days of my life. today when i went to dd's it wasnt that bad. after that, it all went downhill. well we didnt go to the movies. so i just stayed home. were going sometime tomorrow. im not sure how thats going to turn out but hopefully it will be good. well now i got my phone and my computer taken away for having an "attitude." okay, if your dad told you to turn off the lights in your room, while you were in it, would you have an attitude? maybe its just me im not sure. but i did i guess. whatever. lets hope he forgets to take it away tomorrow. i dont know how im going to write blogs, unless my sister is nice and lets me use hers. i think im going to need it. saturday and sunday i have the garage sale. hallies coming to help out. i dont think im going to make it through the week. i guess im kind of hurt. that yew went from me to her to me and now back to her. and you tell me i should trust you? how can i trust someone that keeps changing their mind and cant get ahold of their feelings. idontknow. lets just hope tomorrow will help me forget about things. there are these two songs that keep coming  up on my ipod when i put it on shuffle. one by demi lovato about still loving someone but them breaking up. and one by red car wire thats about it being hard to get over someone when you keep thinking about them. i dont know if its trying to tell me something but maybe its just a coincidence...who knows. 

p.s i like how my mom keeps bringing you up. not making things easier..jsyk. 

"Before I fall too fast,Kiss me quick,But make it last,So i can see how badly this will hurt me,When you say good bye....See this heart,Wont settle down,Like a child running scared from a clown,l'm terrified of what you'll do

my stomach screams just when I look at you,Run far away,So I can breath,Even though your far from suffocating me,I can't set my hopes to high,Cuz every hello ends with a goodbye..."

- Demi Lovato.