I CANT WAIT FOR WINTER.

Anyways, today was a great day...except after school. i know that sounds weird but whatever. i did my summer reading today and i dont think i did that bad. i could have spoke louder but whatever i was nervous. i even liked what i was wearing today. but after school was horrific. i went to the stupid football game and it was retarded. i dont even know why i went. like i could have used that time for something better then that. of course we saw him there because hes in marching band. he acted like i wasn't even there. i felt like i blended in with the bleachers and i couldn't be seen. he introduced all of these new people to lauren and didnt say one word about me. the only thing he said ONCE was oh and this girl she doesnt matter. shes stupid anyway. like i know he was kidding but did he even know that, that hurt me? i guess not. i dont want to hear your excuses how " you dont want to lead me on" or " i want to be friends but i dont want to be flirty, im sorry." because i really dont think sorry is going to cut it anymore. ive heard your apologies too many times. ive ignored it and i even tried talking to you about it. i do want to be friends but i know that i dont treat my friends like that. he also put me in a very awkward situation. i tried ignoring it but i just couldn't. yaknow what hurt also? leading me on and telling me that he might want to get back together and then just going, NEVERMIND. i dont think i could ever live with myself if i did that. but i dont care anymore. the past is the past. i guess im going to have to get over it. i just wish i could give him a taste of his own medicine. well...other then that, i have 4 quizzes tomorrow that i didnt really study for. i mean i studied for spanish alot and math. i think i should go study math and chem. alright bye.

p.s have you ever listened to a song, and it hit you so hard, you felt like crying? i have.

"theres really no way to reach me, theres really no way to reach me, theres really no way to reach me, because im aaaallllrrrreeeaaadddyyy gggooonneee."

- The Fray <3!>