yesterday was fun. went to woodpark with dan, tom, hallie. then we met up with lauren and ralph. i said yes to you yesterday. at 2 am i realized i think we rushed into it. we did that once and i dont want that happening again. of course i feel the same way, i dont think my feelings will ever change. i just want to be settled into school first. i know that sounds like an excuse but thats not it at all. alot of people are telling me "well, if he really liked you, he wouldn't be saying theres a chance you wont get back together if you wait longer." i guess thats true. but isint that what im doing? im waiting. i am waiting for a different reason though.. whatever. so i texted him saying we should wait. i think ever since i send that text message everything went downhill. if we wait, i feel like he will get over me and be like oh well, i found someone else. BYE. but if we dont wait i feel like i would have regretted it. and i dont want that to happen, because i want to go out. just not yet? idrfk. my feelings have been all over the place lately. my birthdays in like 12 days. cool. i dont really even want my birthdaay to come. is that weird? whatever. laurens coming now and were going to get ready for school tomorrow...?! awesome! i have fucking school tomorrow. another thing i get to be stressed about. FTW..bye.

"There goes my ring,It might as well have been shattered,And I'm here to sing,About the things that mattered,About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long,About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong"

-Secondhand Serenade!