Currently Listening:The Worst Of Me- Saosin

it has been a long week. friday i went to hallies for a little and then, i stayed home and did nothing but watch degrassi and twilight. i was okay with that though. saturday i went out with my mom and we put up halloween decorations! i love halloween. then, i slept at laurens and we made cards and gifts for people ahaha. love her. sunday, i went to church with her and we went to the mall. we bought braclets. i felt like putting all of mine back on so i did and im kinda gladd. then, we went to matts party and it was fun. i found out alot about him. i found out matt had to pretty much tell him to say sorry. at least he was thinking about it i guess. and when he said "i met alot of girls but none of them compared to you" shit, was not true. he said he didnt mean it to other people. i just hate how he makes me look like the bad guy saying im the one that hurt him. he hurt me. many times. 3 to be exact. he changed his mind 3 fucking times on me. i wouldnt say he was the one hurt in the end. that would be me. and i sent him a message saying how i felt..and all he could say was "idk what to say :/" at least give me a reason why? no. so whatever. he will see whats its like one day. anyways... today lauren is coming over and were studying for global. then we might go to target or tropical smoothie..or out with people..hahah BYE.

p.s sorry if i did something to hurt you. lets just forget about the stupid shit and move on.

"I won't be here when you need me. When she leaves you in the dark, you will know how I felt. Just remember, I won't be here when you need me. Ill leave you in the dark just like you left me the first time."

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