You Tell Me To Move On, Where Do I Go?

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Currently Listening: Girls Do What They Want- The Maine

so yesterday was a good day. i went into school late because i had chorus as a study hall. i didn't feel good all day but it was still fun. after school, me lauren and kristina went to laurens house and got ready for spotlightttt. they are pretty much my favorite people. anyways, we picked up kayla and we were on our wwayyy. in the car i was kind of...nervous? i dont know what it was. my stomach kept dropping and i couldn't tell if this was a good or bad thing. i think i know why though...lovely. but somethings he does makes me feel like he doesn't want to let go either. im sure he does because hes found someone new and more like him. i am happy for him, but its just weird. last night, it was total dejavu. last spotlight. i remember i was so scared. i thought he hated me and i know he was going to be there. when he came behind me and said hi, my heart just stopped. i was the happiest person alive. now this spotlight they sang all like breakup songs. but they were kind of happy ones. like i still miss you. lol the funny part is when kristina, lauren and kayla thought i was crying i wasnt. but when i was they didnt think i was. haha thats good though. i was just in shock. like one love song after another. and then they brought up the number "42" and sang thinking of you, by katy perry. i didnt even know how to react. oh well, today i think im hanging with lauren at 2:30 and then were gonna try and get everyone to hangout togetherrrr. lets hope that works..haha. well cable guy is coming soon so i should clean...bye!

secret #4: i miss you so much but sometimes, i dont even know why i try.