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i guess i realized today, you cant be upset over stupid things. and maybe sometimes, people should think of other people other then themselves. i dont feel like writing much today.

promise me, lets never get older.

many emotions today..this is one of them.

open your eyes

Currently Listening: Hello- John O'Callaghan
Today was boring. finished my pillowcase, made braclets and did some homework. i was home alone all day..i didnt mind it much though. sometimes i need to be alone. i think im going to teetees soon. hahaa my dad is the funniest man alive. sometimes i hate him and then sometimes i cant hate him. this whole week its just going to be me and my dad. kindaweirdtho. my mom is sleeping at teetees all week. honestly, i feel even worse for her. christmas is in about 2 weeks and for some reason im not that excited but i am. i like christmas eve better than christmas day. well, i should go finish packing..okay bye.

all of a sudden i feel like everything is falling into place. im okay now. i feel alive.

p.s i want to say thanks for being there. you probably dont know im talking about you, but thanks for being my best friend. even if we want to kill eachother sometimes. i still love you <3!

P.S.2 i didnt fail my math test

"step away from the fucking mirror, and take a look out the window, lets start a revolution."

- John O'Callaghan

Currently Listening: The Bird & The Worm- Owl City
i should probably studying for the math test im going to fail tomorrow, but whatever. i feel like today is a good day to write. im stressed. im always tired. i never want to talk to anyone, but i do anyway. theres nobody that will just sit there and listen, without telling someone else or calling you mean, a bitch, spoiled, or stupid. well theres ONE person. i dont know. maybe its just this week? i really hope so. im starting not to care about anything and its scaring me. i dont care how i look, i dont care about my grades. the only things i care about is music....."those who stand for nothing fall for anything." hopefully next week will be different. and sometimes, i feel like im the last person people think about when they have to tell someone something. i hope this blog becomes less mad and depressing by tomorrow, and most likely will. everyday is a new day, to start something new, and change old ways. i hope my day is tomorrow..

p.s. i love you, bestfriend.

p.s. 2: im sorry for being a bitch all the time, i hope you realize i dont mean it...

secret #23: i cant see myself with anyone but him...and i hate it.

" I can finally see that you're right there beside me.

I am not my own, for I have been made new.
Please don't let me go, I desperately need you."

Currently Listening: Happy The Hard Way- Every Avenue

i dont understand how you can be such an asshole. you dont just walk away when someone is calling your name, especially when its your friends. i dont know what your problem is. if its me, fine. ill stay away from you but dont stay away from everyone else just because of me. ihateschool. imnottoofondofhomeeither. ohwell. tomorrow is friday. kinda looking foward to that..alright this blog is pointless..bye!

p.s. why do i feel like you hate me all the time?

" How could a love hurt this bad?,How could we lose all that we had?,Why do we follow through?,What keeps us hanging on?,We lived like a storm and let it ride,For all of the times we felt alive,But sometimes love just can't make you stay,When you're happy the hard way"

- Every Avenue!

secret #21: ilovemy2bestfriends....buttheydontknowthat.

edit: im not sure what im doing...lately, im doing everything wrong.

maybe i should just keep my mouth shut and not say anything..sounds good to me.

Currently Listening: We'll All Be...- The Maine

i guess i can make time and write today. i have so much work to do and dont know were to start. im putting it all off till last minute and its not doing me any good. im waiting around for the day you get hurt by a girl, and you tell me you know how it feels. but that still wont make me feel better. i dont know what will anymore. i dont miss you....but i do.i dont feel like talking anymore..to anyone? its weird. well..maybe except my bestfriend. home isint any better. ive been getting worked up over nothing...idontknowwhatsgoingonwithme.

the sad part is it seems like music is the only thing that can make me feel better.

p.s nofeeling.

secret #20: i cant wait to dorm at college.

"Mean it truly,sincere heart,why do you do this to me,tear me apart"