Currently Listening: The Bird & The Worm- Owl City
i should probably studying for the math test im going to fail tomorrow, but whatever. i feel like today is a good day to write. im stressed. im always tired. i never want to talk to anyone, but i do anyway. theres nobody that will just sit there and listen, without telling someone else or calling you mean, a bitch, spoiled, or stupid. well theres ONE person. i dont know. maybe its just this week? i really hope so. im starting not to care about anything and its scaring me. i dont care how i look, i dont care about my grades. the only things i care about is music....."those who stand for nothing fall for anything." hopefully next week will be different. and sometimes, i feel like im the last person people think about when they have to tell someone something. i hope this blog becomes less mad and depressing by tomorrow, and most likely will. everyday is a new day, to start something new, and change old ways. i hope my day is tomorrow..

p.s. i love you, bestfriend.

p.s. 2: im sorry for being a bitch all the time, i hope you realize i dont mean it...

secret #23: i cant see myself with anyone but him...and i hate it.

" I can finally see that you're right there beside me.

I am not my own, for I have been made new.
Please don't let me go, I desperately need you."