29.

Currently Listening:The Saltwater Room- Owl City

yesterday was actually kinda fun. i went bowling with matt and lauren, because iceskating was closed. i think were going iceskating friday or saturday. i went to the sweet 16 and kristen looked so pretty. kinda makes me want to have a sweet 16 even more now. ohwell, half of the party i sat outside talking to lauren and some random kid. hahahaa. when i got home i talked to mason on oovoo. ahaha. too funny (: we need more people like him in NY. and yes, he has an adorable accent. anyways...today im going to teetees because i haven't seen her in a while. the thought of it being sunday makes me sick. and tomorrow is february 1st..fun. okaybye.

p.s falling for a guy in another state is never a good idea.

"Time together isn't ever quite enough,When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home,What will it take to make or break this hint of love? ,We need time, only time,When we're apart, whatever are you thinking of?,If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?,So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?,All the time, all the time"

29.

Currently Listening: I Wouldnt Mind- He Is We

I guess im going to write now because later i wont really have time. today, i think i might go iceskating with all my friends. i think that would be alot of fun...even though i cant skate for my life (: ahaha. then at like 7 im going to my 2nd cousins sweet 16. that should be alright. not really anything else going on today. last night, i video chatted with someone from illionis. it was actually pretty funny. i should probably have stopped smiling but i dont care. i think he needs to move to new york. edit later if i have time.

p.s. the days passing by, i am almost forgetting about you. but then those days come and your all i think about.

"What would you say if, I told you that all I've thought about is you, since you been gone, I wish some way, some how, I could turn this world right back around, and mend mistakes I made."

- Between The Trees

28.

Currently Listening: Body Language- Jesse McCartney....LOL.

today was a good day. hungout with lauren most of the day. went to friendlys then her house. pointless day though. one thing that im sick of though. im sick of hearing 15 year olds cant be in love. that is the biggest lie ever. i think i would know. love doesnt have an age limit. just thought i should say that because its been bothering me.

p.s imissyou.

"But can you feel this magic in the air?,It must have been the way you kissed me,Fell in love when I saw you standing there"

27.

^ i want it.

today was a good day! i think i did really good on my chemistry midterm. (:

after the test, i went to kaylas with lauren. it was alot of fun. i think we need to do that more often. anyways, tomorrow i think im hanging out with my old group of friends! im kinda excited. i miss them alottt. but idk if i am yet. ohwell. now im going to go watch a movie. oktaybai.

"Fill me up,Steam me up,Hear me shout,Tip me over and pour me out,Pour me out,On the concrete next to your feet,Do I have to cry,Can you hear me,Oh just to be,With you"

- He Is We

26.

Currently Listening: Radio- He Is We

one more day. just one more day, then its all over.

edit: i knew they liked eachother. i had a gut feeling. i guess it really is time to move on. math & spanish were pretty easy. alright write tomorrow bye.

He grew up just a little too fast Lost and needs it's on his past I can hear him hummin', From the other side of the room, Guess he's got rhythm,Cause he hums every time he's blue Radio, Bleed me a melody, That will make this boy cry, Radio, Bleed me a melody, That'll make him wonder why, He was so cold"

- He Is We

25.

me.

Currently Listening: Little Things- The Icarus Account

to stressed to even begin to write. going to study for math and spanish. bye

"time is going by so much faster than i, and im starting to regret not spending all of it with you."

- Nickelback

24.

picture later.

Currently Listening: Cant Name You- Man With Robot Hands

wow. what an amazing time last night. anarbor, the ready set, off city limits, set in color, and FRIDAY NIGHT BOYS. caught 4 guitar picks, met the bands after. couldnt ask for it any better. today, i studied for global all day. im kinda nervous but im hoping it will be okay. well i should go study more. nothing intresting happend. i texted him. okaybye.

"Somethings been causing this pain,I know it's not real it just feels that way,How did things dramatically change,Wish things would of just stayed the same"

-Andrew DeTorres

23.

^ my best friends... + kristina

Currently Listening: Cant Take That Away- The Friday Night Boys

wow. what a great day yesterday. i got dressed and had a mental breakdown about my hair. for some reason i do that before every party. i think i danced almost the whole time. ahaha. i missed all of my old friends too. they always know how to make someone feel better. i cant believe i got upset though. i was trying to hold it back because i was having such a good time but i couldnt. i felt stupid. i hate the fact that i was having such a good time and the thought of you ruined it. well not completley, i still had an amazing time. i just dont get why you would stare from 5,000 feet away and talk to me once. whatever. i have to say my friends helped me through. i love them and i really dont know what i would do without them.

today im going to see friday night boys with lauren! im so excited and im not going to think about you anymore. i want to meet new people. you did right? so why cant i? okay, well i should probably go clean my room, study and get ready. goodbye

p.s you guys are really my best friends. dont forget that.

"I was, I was much better off, before I met you, and your with HER, it pisses me off that your A-Okay, and all that I've got is permanent heartbreak"

22.

Currently Listening: Liar, Liar- NeverShoutNever

im excited. today, kristina is coming over and were making sean a card. then, lauren, kristina and i are going to hallies, getting dressed and going to seans party! i cant dance but im still excited. i think im excited because your going. i will edit later. bye for nao.

"yeah im moving on but that’s the way it goes when you break my heart everybody knows,don’t pull that shit again,from you but im building up, I can see that ive had enough of you,im finally through, and all I see in you, is another mistake right over my shoulder, now I see who you are, and all I saw in you, was girl just lookin' for love,now all I need is an apology,but damn that’s too much"

21.

Currently Listening: Lovers Love, Liars Lie- NeverShoutNever

wow. today was a good day. after school, me and kristina went to laurens to watch cinderella! then we went to palomas partay. i think we made too much fun about walking home at night. hahaha. okay, thats pretty much it. bye.

p.s what the fuck is your problem. you two are exactly alike.

"take photographs take all your memories, we've got some packing to do, we got some packing to do."

- NeverShoutNever

20.

^ took me forever.

Currently Listening: Hey Soul Sister- Train

i want to scream. my head has been fucking hurting all day. it was a pretty good day though. cant make this long. still have homework. palomas partay tomorrow. seans sweet 16 saturday, Friday Night Boys Sunday!...excitedddd. kaybye.

p.s. stop trying to look like the good guy. your a fucking liar.

"be my lantern, help me shine on through."

- The Ready Set

19.

Currently Listening: Cant Take That Away- Friday Night Boys

today was a good day. sorta. except for the english & spanish midterm. oh and the chemistry & global test. i think i did good on my spanish midterm though! anyway, after school i went to hallies and we did wii fit. it is so much fun, suprisingly. ive been in good moods lately. nothing to be happy about, yet nothing to be sad about. so why not be happy for once. anyway, i dont have that much homework which is good. but i have to clean my room. im not going to make this a long one. byee.

p.s. its funny how i was there for you, and now you just dont care.

"I remember everything,And you can't take that,No you can't take that away,You were the one saved me,And you can't take that away"

- Firday Night Boys

18.

Currently Listening: Lovers Love & Liars Lie- Nevershoutnever

about today sucking. yes. very much actually. i am on overload at this moment. i have so much work to do and dont know where to start. i honestly dont feel like doing any of it. now i have to go to my aunts 80th party...bye.

p.s i just dont know.

"And my jaw aches from repetition,Take all your dreams, take all that's left to see,Write it down, sign your name, go ahead and leave,There's nothing left to lose, oh,The clouds rip through the sky like dynamite,To my surprise, it was a beautiful sight,With our hands open wide,And I can't hide the truth as well as you,Singing whoa, singing whoa"

-nevershoutnever

17.

~my addiction~

Currently Listening: Ultraviolet- The Stiff Dylans

damn. what a long weekend. yet, im still not ready to go back to school. im tired and stressed. whatever, it will go away soon hopefully. really, all me and hallie did was watch movies, eat vegatables and do sit- ups. hahahahwerelosers. tomorrow i have a math test and wednesday i have a chemistry test. lets hope for the best. im trying to look at everything in a good perspective now a days. well i guess i should go get ready for school tomorrow...bye.

" Visions so insane,They travel unraveling through my brain,Cold when I am denied it,Your light is ultraviolet,Ultraviolet"

- The Stiff Dylans

16.

teetees with hallie for the night. write tomorrow

15.

Currently Listening: Invincible- The Icarus Accont

i tried posting from my phone but i guess that didnt work. friday i went dress shopping with lauren & kristina. then i slept at tee tees house. saturday day, i was at tee tees all day and then at night i went to go see lovely bones with hallie & my mom. i was actually pretty dissapointed but i still sort of liked it. tomorrow, im going to be doing nothing during the day and then at night me and hallie are sleeping at my grandmas house. monday, we have to watch my cousins kids..im not sure why though. alright maybe edit before i go to sleep. bye

p.s i love you

"To think that we were invincible, That we would become unbreakable,Who are we who are we,I can barely remember

How perfect we were together,Unbelieving that this would ever be hard,But shattered we're falling apart,And somehow we'll pick up the parts"

- <33333

14.

^ its amazing how one envelope can mean so much to me.

Currently Listening: Talk You Down- The Script

today was an overall good day. of course parts of the day i wanted to rip my hair out but looking back now it wasnt that bad. well i still have to do my homework so maybe edit tomorrow. bye

" I can feel the colour running,As it's fading from my face,Try to speak but nothing's coming,Nothing i could say to make you stay"

- The Script!

13.

this picture pretty much sums up my feelings for today.

maybe edit later.

Currently Listening: If You Only Knew- Savannah Outen

" how do we say goodbye, do we laugh or cry?"

12.

Currently Listening: Goodbyes- Savannah Outen

no time for a picture today. so much work to do, so little time. im tired and cant sleep anymore. i guess theres just too much on my mind. this blog is just getting me by, i think a person would be better....anyway, how many days till friday again?

edit later if i ever get the chance to even breathe.

p.s i hate school? yes.

" I'm tearing up I feel your love don't leave me behind,a poetic sonnet passion that I scream to the sky,I'm tearing up I feel your love please don't leave me behind"

- Escape The Fate

11.

^ yes. i have an edward cullen necklace. and yes. i am proud of it.

Currently Listening: Liar, Liar- Nevershoutnever

today was such a long day. i probably say that alot but it was. i cant decide if it was good or bad. the one thing that gets me mad is that this person makes me feel like i wont find anyone. i guess its the way this person said it..idfk. i found out the kid ive liked since 6th grade likes my best friend. i mean thats good news...NOT. i cant let it get to me. that was really the last thing i needed to hear today. after school, was fun? i stayed after with kristina, lauren, theo, dan c, james. that got my mind off things for a little while. then, i went back to laurens house and watched new moon. i dont think i will ever get sick of that movie. well, considering i have tons of homework, i should go get that done. BYE.

p.s i dont like you anymore, but i will always love you.

"Concrete Heartache Left me awake Sleepless Sleeper Oh somebody wake me up Oh somebody tell me you will Tell me that you're going to save me That everything is gonna be ok I'm screaming but nobody can hear me "

10.

Currently Listening: Satellite Heart- Anya Marina

today was a rough day. not literally but mentally. hallie came over and we watched the movie called Brothers & Jennifers Body. that was fun. although everyone i liked died. then, my dad texted me and my sister 4,000 mean messages for no apparent reason. ~story of my life~ anyway, i dont feel like doing anything today. so i really didnt. i know thats bad and i should really be studying for all my midterms coming up in a week, but whatever. i cant stop thinking about you. ill get over it. like my best friend said, one day you will need me, and i wont be here. one day, you will get it right back in your face. but the one part i dont understand is why cant we be friends? even if you wanted to be friends. i dont need one like you. i should go get ready for tomorrow.byee.

p.s 14 days!

"Like the climate,You never know what weather you'll get,No denying you're the habit that I can't quit,It's only a matter of, mine."

- Cute Is What We Aim For

9.

Currently Listening: New Moon- Stephanie Meyer

i want to read so many books but if i read all of them at one time, i know im going to get confused. anyway, today i woke up and watched most of Jennifer's Body...what a fucked up movie. but it was actually really good. ahahaha. then after that i went to barnes & nobles and chilis with my dad. when i got home lauren came over and we didnt really do anything. at 7:30 we went to mikes and hungout with everyone. it was boring but fun? if that even makes sense. for some reason your all i could think about. i dont understand why, but i did. whatever. i really dont care. there are only 3 things that matter to me right now, and im not going to get distracted. and im suprised i havent been that bad with keeping my new years resolutions! well...one of them. but the other two are looking good so far (: alright well im going to finish watching new moon! ahahahah bye.

p.s i cant believe im actually thinking about having a sweet 16..

"By the end of the day, the silence was becoming ridiculous. I didn’t want to be the one to break it, but apparently that was my only choice if I ever wanted him to talk to me again."

- New Moon, Bella Swan, Page 55.

8.

Currently Listening: Get Up- Barcelona
today was a good day...except for my quizes. after school i hungout with kristina and lauren. then we went friendlys and bowling with kyle, max & james and met up with people. it was actually really fun. it got my mind of him. maybe because i was thinking about someone else. ohwell. dont sweat the small stuff. it only makes things worse. im not going to worry anymore. well im going to try not to. like everyone has been telling me. you cant go out looking for him, he will come looking for you.

p.s your still in my mind..

"Cause all you can't deny,is held inside,And when we go, we say goodbye,and then we run,We run away."

- Cartel

7.

^ it scares me how much this picture explains me.

Currently Listening: My Heart Will Find Rest- Chase Coy

i dont know how this happened. i was having a fine day until i got home. tee's in the hospital for the 4th time. 2d time this week. imscared. my aunt manna is getting worse, and i finally found out you really dont care. but the part i dont get is how this happened? what did i do for you to hate me so much? i didn't know it was going to hurt as much as it does now. i mean i moved onto other people but i haven't moved on from you. if that even makes sense. i guess i will write later if i actually have time. bye.

"It's clear that distance is our enemy for now but if it's meant to be, then it will be somehow If I could go back now I'd change so many things But the past is what it is and this is why I sing I only wanna see you happy"

-The Icarus Account

6.

^ im pretty sure triangle proofs are the most confusing things ever.

Currently Listening: Matter Of Time- Cartel

today wasnt that bad. i woke up at 8, thinking it was saturday....stupid. i didn't miss much though. after school, i went to the library till 3 then me and lauren just walked around. we saw kristen, ashley, ralph, dan, mike and other people. hes still an asshole. and he wears girls clothes...he has the same moccasins as me in black...ireallydontunderstand. hes also really concerned with the way he looks all the time..its kind of funny though. well, i should go study for the 3 tests i have tomorrow and friday. BYE.

edit: kristina achniz is always right. why go every day regretting? you learn from mistakes and life goes on.

"This time I’ve got to live without you. That’s just the way it has to be. This time I’ve got to live without you. And you’re on to the next one."

- Escape The Fate

5.

^ they have been getting me through.

Currently Listening: Hello- John O'Callaghan

im so stressed out right now. it might not seem like it because im being so .....notstressed? but i am. my room is a mess. i have midterms, tests, homeworks, and friends. ifeofbweobehgbegnjrigoir. ill write more tomorrow. bye.

4.

Currently Listening: Let It Roll- All Time Low

Today was such a stressful day. massive amounts of work in school and for homework. i feel like i forgot everything over break. i also hate when people stare at me from across the room but refuse to say hi. i mean, why not just say hi. its more awkward staring, then saying hi. we were such good friends. we used to tell eachother everything, and now nothing. you dont even say hi. whatever. im going to start being the bigger person and start to talk. i dont care if you think im retarted for saying hi. im happy to know im the bigger person, trying to talk. i dont even understand why it would be weird saying hi. i really miss the nice talks we used to have too. i didnt even have to watch what i said, because i know you wouldnt tell a soul. and somehow i think you still wont say anything. can we talk like that again and just be friends? im so over getting you back, all i want is to be friends. and about my friend being depressed. yeah. im not sure what to say to this. i wanted to be your friend. i really did. i dont hate you. i dont cringe when you talk. i just dont want to be the only one trying. it takes 2 to hold a friendship. anyways, i hope everything is okay..i mean i know exactly what your going through. and im pretty sure everyone else has gone through it too.

p.s i lie when i say i hate you, i lie when i say im okay, i lie when i say i dont miss you.

"Go, take a chance and be strong,Or you could spend your whole life holding on,Don’t look back just go,Take a breath, move along,Or you could spend your whole life holding on"

- Boys Like Girls

3.

Currently Listening: Control- The Icarus Account
i cant stop listening to the icarus account ^. anyway, today is sunday. last day of break.. we have school tomorrow. i want to go back, but i can wait. i cant wait to see you, but i dont want to. today, im going to tee tees. hopefully not all day but whatever. i still feel bad about what happened yesterday with her...~imturningintomymom.~ WRITELATER.

edit: spent all day at tee's. not so bad. chemistry homework all done? HA big joke. im trying to convince my mom about letting me go to 2 concerts...lets see how this goes. school is tomorrow. fuck.

"I only want the best for You
Even If it means we're through
It's clear that distance is our enemy for now
But if it's meant to be, then it will be somehow
If I could go back now I'd change so many things
But the past is what it is and this is why I Sing "

2.

Currently Listening: Life After You- Daughtry
i have mixed emotions about today. i woke up, cleaned and went to the mall with lauren. there was like nothing left in the stores but whatever. i got a shirt from forever 21. thats about it. then hallie and lauren came back to my house and we rented 500 days of summer. i kinda loved it...alot. the bad part about today was my friend is upset. i dont know where its coming from but keeping everything bottled up inside isint the best thing to do. i know that from experience. if you have something to say, say it. dont worry about what people are going to say. i know im probably not one of the easiest people to talk to, but you are. i feel like i can tell you anything. but i guess you dont feel that way in return. whatever, today is another day.

p.s. everything i do, makes me think of you.

"All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

As long as I'm laughin' with you"

1.

Currently Listening: Proud- The Icarus Account

happy new years day. i haven't written lately, mostly just pictures. but sometimes pictures can explain more than words.

2009. its been a long one. you have taught me alot about friendship, relationships, family, school, and so much more i cant even begin to name. i realized who is most important to me, and who dont matter. i realized you shouldnt try for someone, if they are not willing to try for you. there are so many more things i have learned, but i can go on forever.

2010. your weird to write on paper. please go easy on me, 2009 was rough. i hope i learn more about myself this year. it might sound stupid or whatever but i dont care. i have a lot of 'new year resolutions' to fufil, lets see if i can keep up with them

i hope i can keep up with blog too.

im attempting at a 365. letsdothis.

"It's been three weeks since I saw you Since I said goodbye to Everything I knew I thought that day would never come Well, I guess that I was wrong cause It's already come I miss the smiles I miss the laughs Sometimes I wish that things could just go back To the way they used to be When you were with me"