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^ stolen from kristinaa.

Currently Listening: Harder Than You Know- Escape The Fate
i dont even know how to explain this day. it was a mix of good and horrrible. i dont get how i flip out once and i get called a bad friend and a hyprocrite. whatever. its over now. but just think, i have feelings and everytime you think im getting defensive for no reason...theres always a reason. people dont even know half of the things i think about or half the time, know how im feeling. it might seem like i tell people everything and have no problem doing it but i do. i cant open up to people just like that. i never was able to do that. i guess i never felt like i can open up to anyone and actually trust them. i guess you can say i have trust issues..? whatever. and honesly, i try to listen. i try to help and try to make you feel better. but i guess thats not working. i dont know. and seriously, i wish i had as many friends as you. whatever. cant change that now. i guess i should just stop worrying. espeically about you. ohwell. lets see how well that works. well tonight, im sleeping at laurens cause my dad is working till 1 and my moms at teetees. shes getting alot worse.....great. makes my day 10x better. whatever, bye till tomorrow...iguess.

p.s. everything i do, reminds me of you.

" and if you want me then,i guess ill have to go, not loving you is harder than you know."