i want to believe in the saying in this picture but i'm not sure how i can. well i'm willing to give it a try. i don't know how long this is going to last, but lets hope it lasts for a little while. ill give it a week or 2. anyways, today started off good. i really just sat around on the computer and lauren came here. were supposted to have people at lauren's around 5:30 but who even knows. i hope we can though. i find myself always needing to be with me to keep my mind off things. i know you shouldn't rely on people to keep you happy but at this point in time i have to. im sure i will get over you eventually. i think i already am starting to but who knows. time will tell. i have to think positive . i wish my friends would tell me things though. like i think they dont trust me or whatever. but what is there reason too? what did i ever do that you cant trust me. i wish i could let all of my friends know that when your mad at me, tell me. when i hurt you, let me know. when your sad, let me know and maybe i can help. we should all be there for eachother through the good and bad, thick and thin. if you have a problem with someone, just tell them. im pretty sure they would like to know, i know i would. well i should go start getting ready for later. i know i will be writing later. bye. 

"If you don't love me, pretend,A few more hours, then it's time to go.,And as my train rolls down the East coast,,I wonder how you keep warm.It's too late to cry, too broken to move on..."

-Ron Pope!