today was a school filled day. i felt like i was never getting out of that hell hole. i really think school should just end already. i mean im not sure if im excited for summer but i just know i dont want it to be school. well not including this week, time has been flying by. i was looking on my EX friends facebook and just seeing how much has changed in one year is mind boggling. i dont like who i have become though. that sounds bad but i dont. im never happy anymore. with anything. im never happy with myself, my family, my friends, school. nothing. i wish i could say i am but im usually not. i miss my friends. i love the friends i have now but i miss my old ones also. well i guess thats what happens. you loose old friends and make new ones. i have met new people since my experience in the high school. but i miss the memories with my other friends. whatever. ill have to get over that. somehow. well i think im trying to hard to be happy. yeauh i put a smile on my face and say im fine i just dont feel good. but is that the real reason? i guess its better to hide it sometimes, to keep a smile on your friends faces. well at least a day to remember and my friends have been getting me through this rough patch in my life. all my favorite bands have...thank youu. OH and seeing you in the hallways makes it better too :) but my mom is not helping with the whole "final, regents" shit. like get off my fucking back. i already know im going to have to go to summer school. well i should go... ill prolly wind up writing another one later. bye."And hey darling,I hope you're good tonight.And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving,Yeah, I want it but no I don't need it,Tell me something sweet to get me by,'Cause I can't come back home 'till they're singing..."
-ADTR<3!
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