ive been thinking about everything thats been going on lately. and all i have to say is fuck all of them. you shouldnt need others to make you happy. do whats best for you. you cant force someone to be your friend. and even if you could, why would you want that? anyways, i think ive been to stressed over everything. even the little stuff. i ithink thats why i get mad and take it out on people. i got to learn how to NOT do that. well, things are going to change. i dont think i can count on my fingers how many times ive said that but i mean it. my mom told me today "how can you expect people to love you, if you dont love yourself." i guess that little quote made me think..anyways, im excited for this change. it might not be drastic where you can see it but you will be able to tell. at least i hope so. anyways, i have erased you out of my memories. i dont have any feelings anymore. im not bitter anymore. i know you like her. its okay. im just upset you couldnt tell me and you act like were not friends. OH WELL. not going to let it bother me. like my dad said "brush the small things off your shoulders." besides, nothing can make my good mood go away. not even you. THE CAB TOMORROW WITH THE BEST! :D so excited! well, i should get ready. i better be able to give them my 4 page letter. BAI!

oh p.s i keep asking because i dont like being lied to. and i dont think you would like it either. whatever, you say you dont? fine. whatever. but you hurt a close friend of mine. even though it ming not seem like it she is. so you might want to get your feelings straight and not hurt her again. thanks.