today is a boring day so far. woke up and pretty much did nothing. finished my summer reading. its like a weight was just lifted off my shoulders. yesterday i hungout with mike and hallie. we were supposed to go bowling but they only had lanes for the leauges so we just went back to my house and watched music videos. hhahaha as usual. anyways, i just read yer blog for some reason. and this is me answering i guess. yeah ive been a bitch lately but thats because i have alot going on right now. i dont talk about it because im not the person that goes HEY LISTEN TO MY PROBLEMS! i keep inside till i know i can talk about it. listen, me and my mom talked the other day and she said i have to be honest with myself. i am, i dont like him, i dont care if you like him and i dont care if you hangout with other people because i know i can do the same. i just feel like your not telling me something. if you dont like him oh well maybe im just dreaming but i think its obvious hes got a feeling for yew. if i did care i would tell you. like i did with brian. and about the other thing, i really dont care if you hangout with other people but i just feel like were drifting away from eachother. i feel like im always the one that has to text you and ask if you want to hangout. i had a friend like that to and i gave up asking her and then we just stopped being friends. its hard to get old friends back. i would know. its not the fact that you freaked on me once its what you said when you freaked out. take a step in my shoes. how would you feel if it seemed like brian liked me and we hungout alone 3 times? wouldnt you be a LITTLE curious to see if i liked him. i know thats off topic but still. and i dont look yer way anymore because i dont want to always be the one to call and make plans. USUALLY i am, not all the time but most of the time. remember when you and kristina had trouble or w.e with that? and you guys got over it right? i just dont want to loose another friend. and i know im not doing a good job at keeping one but whatever. im just not making a big deal about this anymore.i know you say im still your best friend, but it just doesn't seem like it anymore. and we can all be mean sometimes. we all have our days were someone says one thing and you just freak out. maybe you dont but some people do. everyones diffrent and ive had alot going on. ever think thats why i was mean? :/. im not trying to sound mean at all. thats not the goal of this. like you said this isint a hard problem to fix. when me, you and hallie hungout i kinda felt leftout. i guess i know what kristina says when she says we leave her out when all 3 of us hangout.

p.s THE CAB TOMORROW<3!>

"very time you walk in the room,Can't help myself i wanna be with you,Hit the mic, a quick check one, two,Singing

out my lungs just to reach you,I'm alive,And I keep my cool one more time,And you just keep on walking by"

-Holiday Parade<3!