The silence isn't so bad, Till I look at my hands and feel sad, Cause the spaces between my fingers Are right where yours fit perfectly.

Currently listening~ rainbow-colbie caillat

`i need to go to the beach at night soon. its been to long and its the only place i can get all of my thoughts out.
i cant do this. pretend like im okay when im really not. im not happy with anything anymore. every decision i have made has been a disappointment in the end. i have made so many mistakes. ive given up my closest friends was one big one. theres also another one that im not going to even bring up. anyways, today sucked but not too bad. i woke up and went out wiff my sister and mom oh and tee tee (: haha we went to target and then i went with jay and sarah to move her into college. its amazing me how school is almost starting. its going to suck so much. oh well. cant dread on it. i just feel like im drifting away from everyone. i feel like just because ive dont dance around in bras, sing miley cyrus and talk in weird accents nobody wants me around anymore. now another one of our friends filled that slot so im pushed to the side. i just wish i knew what they were thinking. but some of them just dont like to tell me...or talk to me. i always try to invite everyone to my house because i know what it feels like to be left out. but clearly they dont. whatever. going to watch degrassi. bye.

p.s why does this always happen to me?

"I can't get you out of the sunlight,I can't get you out of the rain,I can't get you back to that one time,'cause you and me are still recovering,So let's just try to cool it down,The fighting is feeling like flames,And let's just try to slow it down,We crash when we raise"

- colbie caillat <3