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currently listening: god gave me you- dave barnes

i cant even handle this anymore. today was probably 10x worse than yesterday. gum stuck to my bag and shoe, forgetting my bus number, not doing any homework and getting screamed at by my math teacher AND my dad. yeah, lifes pretty SUCKY. i just want to like dissapear. i guess your right. my head is somewhere in life. but i just wish someday im going to be something. im going to do something with my life, and shock you all. especially you. im not going to be a failure in life. so you can stop saying that. maybe edit later....if im still breathing.

p.s thanks.

edit: i finally let it all out. i cried. i cried because i want to be something when im older, and you telling me i wont..im starting to believe it. i cried because i want you back but im not sure why. i cried because i dont want to feel alone all the time. i cried because i thought about what my life would be like if i lost my best friend. i dont think i would be able to survive without her. i cried because i want my grandpa back and i want my grandma to feel better. and i cried because i dont know whats wrong with me. goodnight.

"ive been a walking heartache, ive made a mess of me"

- dave barnes