this might sound bad but i dont have a hero. its kinda been bothering me lately. i wish i could say "yup, i look up to that person. they've been with me through so much i can go to them for anything." but i cant say that. i wish i could. but i do have a guy that has been my inspiration. his name is Alexander William Gaskarth. i have met him once and talked to him for about 10 minutes. but it had to be one of the best 10 minutes i've had with anybody ive met from any band. hes inspired me to try different things and to enjoy life as it comes. he taught me to not worry about what people think. they can talk all they want, but it only can affect you if u listen to what negative bullshit there saying. i'm not saying hes perfect or even a good role model but he has inspired me so much. that might be pathetic. a guy from a stupid alternative band inspiring a 15 year old. well suck it up because its true haha. thank you Alexander William Gaskarth for inspiring me. well today, me and lauren walked to target and we saw mike seres and his friends there. lolol. love that kid. he can be mean sometimes but he still is nice.....anyways, then i got my tuberculosis shot checked and I DONT HAVE TUBERCULOSIS! SWEET! well hallie did faint though. right in the hall. i was so scared. ive never seen someone faint before. it was the scariest thing i think ive ever experienced with a friend. well im glad shes okay now. we went back to my house and went shopping. i got the cutest dress ever. i usually cant find clothes i like because i usually think i look...gross. but i actually like something. surprising! haha i also bought purple skinnys! :D so excited haha. but im so nervous for tomorrow. i have gurwin and im scared im not going to know where to go or not going to be able to get someone in the elevator or forget to lock a wheelchair. oh god. im freaking out haha. i need to "RELAX" inspiring words by Daniel Brian Gillen ahaha. well, i feel like i should talk about this. i heard you don't like how i act sometimes. well maybe sometimes i act like that because you make me feel bad. even my mom, my sister and MY SISTERS FREIND, is saying you don't seem to like me very much. i know your going thought alot with everything but you can at least try and pretend to like me. i don't want to keep trying to be friends so if you don't want to be friends just tell me because im sick of being the one to try. anyways, i want to thank the people that ARE there for me to listen. whoever that is... i just wish i had ONE person i can go to, to tell everything. and they came to tell me stuff also. i dont have someone like that. well, at least i dont think i do? everyone has someone in our group. who do i have? whatever. i have to wake up at 9 tomorrow so im going to go to sleep. i just wish everyone could get along perfectly. and nobody fought, nobody worried about what they wore or what they looked like...this is commack. thats like asking all time low to come to my house. never going to happen.. goodnightt. "I've got watch but I don't have time.,I've got a road that leads to decadence,But a dead end sign waits down the line, ill leave my footprints for the evidence..."
-All Time Low
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